One of my biggest fears when it comes to Pet Sitting is that an animal will die while it’s in my care. Three years ago I thought that fear had come to fruition!
After an amazing day with Jeffrey,  I went to bed with him sleeping next to me, but at midnight I woke to a strange gurgling sound coming from his body! I reached across the bed to check on him, his body felt lifeless. I got up and turned the light on and he was laid on the bed motionless and he didn’t even appear to be breathing. I tapped him gently and called his name but got no response. I felt panic start to rise within me, I called his name louder, still nothing. I shook him a little harder, still nothing. I looked in his eyes, they were vacant, like he was moments away from death!!
Thoughts started to race through my mind. How could this be?! Had he eaten something poisonous? Had he choked on something? How would I get him to a vet in the middle of the night? How was I going to tell his owners he had died?! Would they blame me?! I felt anxiety coursing through my body!
I decided to check his mouth to see if there were any blockages in his throat, that could be blocking his airways! I reached my hand into his mouth, and suddenly Jeffrey was back in his body!! He jumped awake, stood up on the bed and shook himself! He had simply been in a VERY deep sleep!! 
The relief was immense, he wasn’t dying after all, but yet anxiety still coursed through my body and I was shaking all over! In that moment I decided to ask myself a question, to see if this situation was a trigger for a childhood trauma, “How old am I being right now?!”
The answer came immediately into my mind, ‘9 years old!’ “What happened when I was 9?” I asked my subconscious. I was immediately given an image in my minds eye of looking after the school pet rabbit. I felt extremely privileged to have the opportunity to take this rabbit home during the holidays, but unfortunately while it was in my care it died! 
I was given the awareness that when I returned to school after the holidays the other children in my class had blamed me for the rabbits death, even though the teacher had explained it wasn’t my fault! My inner 9 year old was distraught! She believed it was her fault that this rabbit that she had loved so much had died, she was beside herself with grief! 
I tuned into the little nine-year-old within me and I told her that it was not her fault. The rabbit had chosen to pass away at that time and there was nothing she could’ve done. She didn’t do anything wrong! I dialogued with my Inner child till I felt her begin to calm down, her tears subsided and I felt the anxiety in my body dissipate! I felt her integrate within me as a healed aspect and my body was calm again!
Jeffrey looked across at me from the other side of the bed as if he had known what he was doing all along, and then he went back to sleep!!
In the morning I messaged my mum. “Did a rabbit die in my care when I was a child?” I asked her. Her response was “Yes, we looked after the school rabbit over the summer holidays and it died. You were about 9 or 10!”
I was blown away, I hadn’t consciously remembered this experience yet the information I had received from my subconscious mind was spot on. My mum told me, “you were so distraught and you were worried that all your classmates were going to blame you for the rabbits death!”

This is one example of how our inner children can affect us in our lives when we experience a trigger from an earlier childhood trauma. If these aspects of ourselves are not integrated and healed then they can continue to react in certain situations and affect how we are able to deal with certain events in our adult lives!
Do you have an inner child within you right now that is crying for attention? Are there certain situations in your life that trigger you without you really knowing why? How old are you being right now? It is important that we learn to parent our own inner child and give them what they needed back then that maybe they didn’t receive. If you are interested in learning how to speak to your inner child you might want to try my online Inner Child Meditation – https://rebeccagambles.com/inner-child-workshop/